Patterns are trippy things…
A friend of mine said today:
“Bad pattern emerging: totally prone to fall for guys who are completely uninterested in/indifferent to me. (Or does this happen to everyone?)”
And then I traded a conversation back and forth with a friend today who can be a bit of an ass, but who I’ve always thought liked me. However, in that conversation it was all about him and, even after not speaking since my Dad died, when I asked how he was doing, I got back word that he was fine, thanks.
And nothing that looked like…”Hey, how’re you?”
Now, the guy’s a friend. I’ve never met him and I likely never will. (After this, heh, well, odds are…) And it’s not his fault really. I mean, he’s told me he can be an ass.
But it’s not like I haven’t gotten mini crushes on guys who were jerks. It’s not like I don’t find myself wanting them to like me, or to find me unique and interesting and worth not being a jerk too.
I wonder, what’s that about and, on a secondary thought train, is it related to my friend’s ponderation above.
And why do I want to quote Al Franken right now?